Not Sure.

My husband has challenged my statement that the Holy Spirit is a gentleman.  I guess I have just always been told/taught that.  And I've believed it I guess.  But it got me thinking ... if God is as passionate about me as He says He is ... then wouldn't he be passionately pursuing me?

A friend of mine once told me something of her testimony that I've never forgotten.  She said that while she had wandered away from the Lord for a time, she always thought that God was just standing by, patiently waiting for her to return to Him & the plan He had for her life.  But NO!  She said the Lord had given her a clear picture of "what it was like for Him" while she wandered around on her own, doing her own thing:

"He wasn't sitting on the sidelines, waiting & hoping I would look His way & change my mind.  NO!  He was actively campaigning.  Marching around me with picket signs that read 'COME HOME NOW' or 'I LOVE YOU & IT'S URGENT'.  He was waving His arms around and motioning for me to come to Him.  He was crying and praying for me."

Well wow.  That's a little bit different picture.  A gentleman?  Yes.  Patient?  Absolutely.  Urgent?  Even moreso.  Although my God will never force me to do anything  ~  He has given us all free will to choose Him or deny Him  ~  He is also crying out for our hearts!  He is in passionate pursuit of the core of who I really am, and He's intent on getting there.  I just have to open the door & say yes.

My husband always reminds me, "The most dangerous thing you can say to Jesus is 'Yes'."  Wooooo .... aint it the truth?  So, I say "Yes Lord".  I want you to come in & rearrange the furniture in my heart.  Sweep out the basement & chunk the junk in my heart.  Be brutal in your estimation of deciding 'trash or treasure' with everything you find in there.  I cherish Your Holy Spirit and His leading. 

He woos us, He pursues us, and He is patient with us.  But He is also in a little bit of a hurry! 

A Gentleman

Hello World ... I am attempting to jump into this blogging thing again, but on a more personal level this time around.  In the few years past, I initially attempted to blog about family - my husband, my kids, our marriage/ministry - but never was really able to keep it up like I wanted to.  Now, I am looking for an outlet to 'let loose' some of the ramblings of my mind these days ... regardless if anyone ever reads it or not.

So, here I am!  A new year ... a new season.  I find myself falling in love with Jesus ... again.  The Holy Spirit has been very intimate with me the last couple of weeks, and I LIKE it!!  Well, let's think about that: actually, the Holy Spirit is always desiring to be intimate with me, but I guess I have just recently pressed in again, and am embracing & participating in that intimacy.  He is such a gentleman.

Have you ever felt like you are juggling emotions?  Although all my HOPE is in Him, and I am anchored in knowing He is mine & His plans for me will prevail as I continue to surrender, I can still find myself (notice I said SELF) vacillating between surrendered bliss & sheer terror!  Ha ha.  Therefore, I daily struggle to allow the Holy Spirit to trump my SELF/EMOTIONS.  And He always comes through ~ a faithful gentleman.

Oh Lord, please help me to live on the edge & still be at peace!  You are precious to me & I am so thankful that You have continued to walk with me in patience all these years.  You are such a faithful friend & I adore You!